Maybe I'm just PMS-ing but I've felt that I didn't really do much to celebrate the day of my birth, and honestly I've felt really bummed out. I sound pretty stubborn and selfish right now because I know I can just easily plan something out and get it done, but at the same time my schedule and workload doesn't allow me to attempt anything. Even during Thanksgiving I can't do much because parents need help insulating a room in the house and I need to study for an exam that I REALLY need to ace or I'd fail the course, which means I can't graduate. I also have this major thesis paper that I need to get to writing because it's a big portion of whether I graduate from school or not. AND my boss is depending on my paper in order to get sponsors from major companies and that's already putting a weight on my shoulders to make sure that his company succeeds in this project. I also have to start looking into jobs and positions to apply for because I know right now graduate school isn't an option for me.

All of this stress and sadness has been building up so much it makes me wonder how come I always focus so much on the bad and not on the good? It makes me wonder maybe I miss him so much. I used to be able to call him up or text him telling him that something is wrong. And he always picked up or replied back. Honestly enough, I tried calling him this past Wednesday (I'm so STUPID). Maybe I just miss his presence and his randomness so much that this year has been getting to me. Dang, I've been listening to sad love songs for the past 4 hours. WHY?!

I hate being a negative-nancy. Oh well, no sense feeling like this. Back to my 10 pages of my intro & background for my thesis. Oh and this long problem set for Molecular...